Where to now?

(Extracted from my blog)

Life has been a very funny thing for me. From the time that I was born, I've never worried so much about life. What's going on around me never seemed to matter much for me as a toddler, as a kid, as a teenager. I was oblivious to everything, anything, except for playing music, sports, reading...etc.

But I'm sure many of my peers would agree that lately, it seems like we've hit a brick wall, a very thick one, so thick you could literally commit suicide by banging your head against the wall. Of all the problems we've solved previously, none matched the dilemma this road block has to offer. And that is... "What next?"

It's just one simple question and it may had already caused many sleepless nights for some. For the first time in our life, reality finally hit us, and it hit us hard. We've grown up now, and emerging from this once safe place of adolescence, now to us a cocktail of uncertain fork roads where to opt for the wrong path could lead to many more uncertainties in life.

"I want to be a doctor"... "I want to be a lawyer"...

Of course there will be some people who may give you a clear answer for that question when you ask them, they seem to be sure, almost. That takes a great deal of courage, for to set a definite path for yourself is like betting all your money in a hand of poker, you can't really go back, there's only forward. Usually these are the peoples who end up being very successful, or they'll end up working in a job they don't really like with a boss they hate to their guts.

But what if you don't have an ambition? Does that means you're doomed to fail too? That I don't know. But I can tell you one thing, taking life one step at a time is not proven formula for failure, in fact there are many tycoons out there who were once so aimless and so poor in life that you'd thank god you have a better head start. Then again, those were just the success stories, what about the other millions who were also aimless and poor? Were they as lucky too? "Life is cruel." "Life is unfair." That's just a few of many forms life takes up in front of us. 

So to ask "what next?" is very unfair and cruel indeed to us. We're just starting to get our freedom to choose and here came what might just be the most important choice we'll ever make in our life. I've read this somewhere, it saids that what defines our life in the future is what we do between the age of 18 to 22. It's true in some way, some people made it through and had never looked back since, some people screwed it up and became a person who never see the light again.

So... Yea... Where to now?

Monday, August 10, 2009